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I waas going back looking back at some of my blogs iam reposting

a little of them and telling where iam now . well when i wrote this blog

heres the up date its now oct oct 14,09 and we have back in jan moved

out of mother in law's  we bought our house back in jan16 and moved in .

 I was setting looking out my window thinking the weather is rainie

and a little chilled but to me its just beautiful thinking wow to have

peace in my life and in my house ,see this time last year we were

living with my mother in law and boy the stress was hell it caused me to have a stoke

its so nice all the peace and just to be albe to do normal things like cooking

and not to have my mother in law over my sholder watching my

every move in the kitchen . its just wonderful to be alble to walking into the living room

and talk to my husband and not have her (my mother in law)

giving us her words of wisdom about our topic we were talking about

wow i will never ever move in with a

mother in law ever gain she put us threw such hell.

things in my life the little things like just the peace

and love i have in my house wow its great i give god the

thanks things in my life have changed so much for the better

and oct21,09 donald and i will be married for 4 years iam going to have a EP

party!!!

donald came and got me in oct 19 2005, his mother said told him if you go get that woman they cant live with me. see donald had been married 2 times befor and his frist marrage lasted almost 5 years ,the first mrs really hurt him bad . the second one lasted a month he saw what she was changing into she was controling wife like the first wife in my opion. donald brought me back to my home town the nexk day after ariving home we stayed with his mother for about a week. the first thing she says to me let me adopt torrie , where did that come from? i was wondering . well i told her no one would raise my daughter but me no offence. well mother in law wantedto raise my daughter and home school her . iam very againsted. mother in law was raising her grand daughter . this made me wonder why couldnt her daughter raise her daughter? mmmmwell the nexk day donald and i got married the day befor he asked me to marry him . i had been in love with him sents i was in high school i was so backwards i never told him so i promised god i would tell him if i ever saw him again, i found him threw classmates. he had told me that his father was dying of small cell cancer, his mother was going threw h ell . so my heart went out to her . his mother was doing things i didnt understand like showing me what a beautiful wedding he had with his first wife , i didnt know what to make of it . i really got the feeling she didnt trust me i didnt know why , i also felted she resinted me for marriying her son , i didnt know why. then about a week into my marrage we moved into our little traier. his sister came over i was cooking and she started in how her mom stole her daughter from her and how mother in law tricked her into giving her her daughter. well i didnt know what to make of that so i just hurd what all she had to say , then she got into how her father molested her . and of corse any one with a heart would get upset hearing that. so she lefted . something just didnt make any sents to me ok if her dad molested why would she have her daughter living with grand pa and grand ma? was she lieing about it? i dont really to this day know .but i didnt understand. why would any mother let her child live with a molseter? well i went to the mother in law and told her what her daughter was saying to us and was it true. she said no it wasnt then she started trashing her daughter telling all the bad things she had done how when she was a teen she was sleeping with alot of men being a real big tramp. i asked father in law was it true what donald sister was saying? father in law looked at me and asked me did i belive her ? i told him i wasnt sure but i felted like there was truth in what she was saying but i wasnt sure what to belive. so i let things drop. strange things started happing in our home mine and dolalds home we started finding little pieces of cloth (prayer cloths) it could have only came from his sister chrie , we were finding them every where in my pillows on the desk in the couch. so i let it go again . but where we were finding the little prayed over cloths where where some one had to be letting her in our home with out us being home . i dont like sneekie people doing things like that becalse doing something behind your back is wrong .if you cant hand me a prayer cloth why hide it in my couch and other places, i was finding prayer cloths in my purce. i told donald about that , i didnt really want to make a big deal out of it but it concerned me , well i found out that my land lords and chrie were best pennicostal friends . little things like that was happening i told mother in law she just laughted well i have prayer cloths all over my house too. this concerned me donald didnt seemd to concern eather. but i didnt like the fact that his sister came into my house with out my concent and did things like that . well then chrie started crap becalse we went to mom in law about what she did we told on her. well she had to one up us , she told mother in law that we was home and wouldnt open the door to her , she could see my daughter peeking threw the blinds and she wouldnt let her in . then she chrie told mom in law there was blood all over the porch , chrie saw me the day befor putting red cool aid in the humming bird feeder she saw the red cool aid dripiing on the  porch railing i told her it was red cool aid , well she got mother in law scared ,so finly she calls donalds cell phone , she asks whats going on . well donald and i were laying down in our bedroom becalse he had just slipped his disk in his back , well thoughtful sis was trying to sturr up some crap. then we would go on family outing and it just be my husband and my daugher , we would make special trips to the mall and fun center with anna becalse she was in the family too we didnt ever leave anna out beclase shes a sweet little girl , her mother wouldnt raise her ,her real father wanted to give her away. so the child was just dealthed a heard life and i must say mother in law did step in and take her grand daughter becalse her mother couldnt raise her she didnt really have time to raise a child . i do see that his sister is mentally unfit for being a mother .and shes been in a mental hospital ... in between all this donalds father passed awway. this june2007. it was aug the 7 we moved in with his mother , i told donald i didnt want to move in with her i didnt think it would work little things would happen bewteen his mother and me she once handed me my head telling me i wasnt going to threw up in her face that we went to the mall with my daughter and didnt take anna with us,donald went to his mother and let her have it becalse he hurd me on the phone  i was in our car i called her to let her know we were on our way home and dont worry we would drive slow it was really snowing bad that night we thought we woulndt worry her by telling her we were on our way home ,she gave me a blessing out telling me shame on us for not including little anna how bad were . well mother in law said iam SORRY so i forgave her but i told donald it wouldnt work moving in with her. she flipped flopped back and forth yes she wanted us in no she did and over and over. so then donald told me things would work out with his mother she was this wonderful woman so giving so kind.

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lord i just cant please her i cooked last night it was about 8pm i didnt offer her any and she got so pissed off

 just cant please her most of the timeshe says i cant eat meat ,or i cant eat after 4pm i cant eat after 1pm shes crazy! Edit   Delete

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This is why i feel so threated by my mother in law i just wonder when my husband and i can live our lives .she(mother in law) has made it her life to make sure dr s little niese is never lefted out . and i dont mind taking her with us shes 12 ,but what has builted up my resntment of my mother in law is when i first married her son she has guilted tripped us both when we dont include the little niese , and see i have a daughter shes 14 and mother in law wanted them too to bond form day one , and my mother in law has always treated my daughter diffrently . she also wanted my daughter to bond with grandma in law from day one. she is raising her grand daughter very diffrently than iam raising my daughter , shes raising her grand daughter to be just like her mother helpless.. she drives me nuts becalse i see how shei is minulapiting us by little things she does . may be she dont like me becalse i see threw her little loving mom play, i see things so diffrently . shes gona make sure her grand daughters taken care of at all cost and i dont  think she cares if she hurts any one beclase of the things shes wanted from my husband like when i first married my husband she told him a few years ago that she wanted my husband to pay off the morgage to thier house then little niese would have all say so on the house my husnad would pay for with his money and just let the niese that right now is 12 years old have the house , anint that the crazyest thing you ever hurd then she wanted his sister also to move in tooo and my husband raise them both! what do you think of that? thats so crazy . so now that hes gotten marred again boy i messed up thier plans mmmm. i think thats what shes got againsted me that i messed her little happy world up , but all this was suposed to happen after both grand ma and grand pa dies . pretty crazy stuff...

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0 Comments | Public | 738 views | Permalink | Flag Inappropriate just depressed I am depressed becalse i didnt stand ferm with how i felted about moviing with mother in law. i didnt want to move in beclase i knew things wouldnt work beclase of what i was seeing in his mother . iam sorry for saying any thing i should have been a good wife and just moved in and be the good little stedfardwife then all would be perfect . da mn i had to say how i felted and now ive hurt him , iam just seeing things in the fucher and i know when grandma passsess we will have to keep things together becalse we are gona have to fix things with the family .. so from this day faward i will keep my mouth shut and not speak the truth becalse all it dones is hurt the man i love with all my heart no matter what. i will give mother in law just the relationship she wants nothing more and i will smile doing it no matter how i feel . i will smile and be happy . becalse i cant hurt donald again . becalse he told me the truth . oh well iam just being stupid as iam ! it will all pass just like my  depression and after all he did move in with his mother becalse he loves her and was looking out ofr her iam just woren out fighting to have the rights to my feelings . i should stop being self fish and being a cry baby . and think more of mother in law . now its been sents ausg.8 2007 sents we moved in with mother in law . i feel so depressed becalse every time i talk to donald hes gets defincive about his mother and i understand he loves his mother but he cant always see what i see she has and will minulpeate him and me to get her way ive seen it , i just cant stand it . mother in law cant wait to get us  out becalse we dont have any more money to give her we have spented 11 grand just living here , lord .... iam praying this wont cost me my marryage beclase i love him so much but all this has put a stress on us ,so i dont my best to just smile and say nothing about his mother becalse no matter what he loves her and sees no falts in her , i cant falt him for loving her and him taking care of her , but some times i wonder where i fit in after mom. i feel last in line some days , but oh well Edit   Delete

2 Comments | Public | 796 views | Permalink | Flag Inappropriate love iam lost and hurt ..feeling things iam feeling .. just dont know what to say . well some things i wont talk about no more how can i not be hurt by what was said it all comes back to how ive felted all this time but i will blend into the wall paper not to bother any one . i just feel so alone on some things happing . but one thing i have learned nexk time iam aposed to something that effects me and my daughter i will stand up and be counted i wont be put in a situwation like this ever again , when i saw this crap comming moving in with his mother i knew it woulndt work and i know she dont want me here only her belovied son . and if it takes it he will have to chose me or mother i wont hold my breath on his choise thats just the way men are all of them making decisions for them selfs not thinking or taking advice from me that this wouldnt work but what do i know Edit   Delete

0 Comments | Private | 1 view | Permalink | Flag Inappropriate I GET LOST I get lost when i look in your eyes

 i get lost when i see you smile

i get lost when i hear your voice

 i get lost when i think of you

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2 Comments | Public | 716 views | Permalink | Flag Inappropriate THE PAINTING: A POEM

THE PAINTING I GOT THE PAINTING ALMOST 2 YEARS AGO. IT WAS A PAINTING OF A HOME

 THE HOUSE WAS BIG AND WHITE WITH BLACK TRIM. THE PAINTING WAS SO VIVRENT  VERY BEAUTIFUL

  THE PAINTING AFTER 2 YEARS THE COLORS ARE RUNNING DOWN THE CANVAS THE BRIGHT COLORS ARE FADDING INTO THE PICTURE

THE PAINTING THE BRIGHT COLORS ARE TURNING UGLY BLACK AND GRAY . THE HOUSE PAINTING LOOKS LIKE A OLD PAINTING

 THE PRETTY COLORS WERE FAKE WATER COLOR THATS FADED TO THE TRUE COLORS BLACK AND GRAY JUST UGLY NOW THE PAINTING IS TOSSED IN THE TRASH . PICKING UP THE PAINTING WONDERING WHAT BRIGHT COLORS MUST HAVE BEEN PAINTED WITH. THE PAINTING

 MAYBE I SAW BEAUTY THAT WAS NEVER THERE IN THE PAINTING ANY WAY ,OR WAS IT? I CLEAN THE PAINTING UP WITH LOVE AND CARE NEW COLORS EMARGE . THE PAINTING OF THE HOUSE IS RESTORED NOW THERE ARE FLOWERS CHILDREN PLAYING IN THE YARD AND A BIG BLACK LAB ON THE PORCH . SETTING IN THE SWING IS A GRAY CAT . THE PAINTING IS COMPLEATE WITH A FAMILY AND FLOWERS IN THE YARD . ITS A PRETTY PAINTING OF A HOUSE....

WRITTEN BY KJR

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2 Comments | Public | 764 views | Permalink | Flag Inappropriate i know no family is perfect

i know all family has problems but some of the family issues i have came accrosed in this family  are hard to deal with

 but i know to have '' A RELATIONSHIP" with mother in law of the year i have to say what she wants to hear so there will be peace

in the house becalse right now that all our moneys gone she knows we are trapped we cant efford to move so we just smile and be happy happy joy joy! its so sad all of the family is so fake mother in law doesnt live in reallity she lives in a fake world that you just get over the past and every things fine . well its not she wont see her  granddaughters got a eating problem ive seen the little girl eat and eat then run to the bath room , this is getting so bad my family members are asking me ( my twin sister) does she make her self puke? well one night anna did this 3 times and i brought it to the attion of donald i asked him to say something to his mother , i saw the look on her face she knows what annas doing she knows, so i thought of a way to bring up the subject of eating disoters . it was a movie called for the love of nancy, so donald thought it would be a good movie. it went on and mother in law all threw the movie comented about anna well anna eats anna aint like that girl . see she sees it becalse she comments about it . so for now we cant do any thing to really help anna but when we move out i'll give it time and something will be done beclase i love little anna and shes got a eating disorther something wrong . with her and i have seen her christmas eve make her self sick so she didnt have to go to dinner with her mother chrie and her step father . anna made her self puke . its so sad. but any way i love my family just dont like how they treat us but for now we will keep peace.

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1 Comment | Public | 747 views | Permalink | Flag Inappropriate anointing oil in your wine

his sister came over one day she was acting funny like she was up to something .

 she put anonting oil in our wine . we didnt know the wine was in the ref. for about a week then i decited i wanted a glass of wine

 i looked at my glass and tasted the wine it had a funny taste . so i looked at the glass and pored it out i was thinking mmm i got a greasy glass so i took my wine glass and rewashed it and repored another glass the same thing it had a oily fielm . why it have oil in the wine well we both drank some of that wine and we got the s hit s for a few days then we got to thinking who would put something in our wine. his sister , she wasnt sorry for what she did she told us she did it inthe name of JESUS and she would do it again then she said she puts the holy oil in her husbands food , shes put it in browinies , now you see why i wont eat any thing she bakes.  we have a big blow up over this all we wanted wasa appoligy to say she was sorry, at first  his mother just laughted at her putting oil in our wine . sis came over and we all had a big blow up over the wine and how wrong she was to do that. well this time mother in law didnt laught too hard, i told mother in law well if she got in her head that mother in law was going to hell she might try something on her. that made mother in think hey that really wansnt funny. she could have really hurt us. it was something a phyco would do. well she came over and it was on , mother in law half a ss told her she was wrong for what she did and she shount come back over till things calmed down . well donald was in the kitchen sis said iam sorry to him and he told her to needto tell my wife iam so sorry not me , well she walked up to me and said iam sorry she sounded like a kid that wasnt sorry. the truth is she wasnt sorry . well i let her have it , i asked her what gave her the right to come in our home while we wasnt home and put prayer cloths all over our house see when we moved i found prayer cloths in places that they shouldnt have ever been like in my bed frame . the cloths werent there the day we put our bed up over a year ago . what she did was wrong. and i told her that she did all that in the name of jesus , she was wrong to put annotion oil in our wine just be calse she dont like us drinking around her daughter . it wasnt her concern that we have a glass of wine befor bed. so she was trying half a ss to say iam sorry but it was a pittyful attempt . it was fake and i called her on it .then she turned to her mother and when off her on blaming her that when her mother was drunk she got molested by her dad , she walked into the other room mother in law followed her this wasnt over mother in law said well how about the days of her wh oreing around and suc kin g c ocks all over town . she couldnt take being c ock su cking w hore she slapped her mother . this time she met it she told her dont come back over till the dust seddles . then she went over to her daughter and told her she was being bannded from the house becalse no one loved her then she stromed out. well that lasted one day she was over the nexk day acting like nothing happend wow twlight zone or what? she announced iam here to see my daughter and went in her daughters room and played mother for 30 minutes. she wouldnt come into the house when we were there we changed the door locks on the house so she just couldnt walk in . and we changed the code for the graudge door . well mother in law and uis sat down for a kinda family meeting , she said she would never lose her temper to her daughter chrie ever again becalse she saw how up set all that did to poor little anna, she had a point but that also ment she wouldnt hold her daughter chrie accountable for what she did and she didnt want to say any thing to her , all we wanted from chrie was to be sorry for what she did and understand what she did was very wrong , guess that was asking too much of this family. well mother in law did want us to say nothing more to chrie becase SHE WAS BI POLOR AND WE NEEDED TO FEEL SORRY FOR HER. well we let things go and donald and i started the war. we both wrote her letters donalds letter was over 6 pages mine was 4 , well mother in law got wind of the forbidden letter how dare us disobay her! well thats what started this war in september of this year. we didnt talk trash to her just telling she needed to be accountalbe for what she did it was dangrours putting annoting oil in our wine. so mother in started changing about oct lord she she b itched about every thing from flushing the tolet after you go to every thing she just wouldnt stop tell ing the neibours crap about us ,beclase the talk was comming back to us. she walked around like she resdented us being there in her home . she told donald thank god for the teamsters $600.00 i dont know what i would have done with out them and thier money. see after dad passed away we payed for the furnal 4 grand then this was in june then aust. social securty took she said out of her bank account the money becalse something about dad didnt live for the full month of june i never could get a full storie on that one , she had bills comming out of her checking account . so when we moved in we gave her $700.00 to cover our living there fair? i think so then we would get our own food sents aust. ive have went over our back statements we have gave her 10 thousnd dollars sents aust. thats not us free loading like shes telling the nebours. do you think? we give her $700. dollars for rent or $600. depending on the bills + we payed for $500.00 becalse she wanted the direct tv in 4 more rooms 2 of the boxes was in our rooms my bed room and my daughters room, then the wiriing to have the direct ran all over the house. always stalking me when i would cook i counted in one hour she had to check on what i was cooking 6 times i stayed calm becalse i knew she was picking for a fight and i just kepted smiling . she goes threw our bedroom , so i gave her something to look at i lefted one of my toys on the bed ,hahaha and you know what iam talking about  i put things in my jaaurnal becalse i know she hast to read it hahah a i give her something to read to  p iss her off and it works every time we go out for a few hours she reads it ... but i say things about anna that i knew she has a eating problem and i would get her help if i was her mother and she really does have a eating problem , mother in law just wont see it ...one day the school will figure that out shes anna has had rumers started about her that shes annrexica , well what i have seen she makes herself puke so donald and i watch anna ,we make her eat when we go out for a family outting , mother in law gives me orders that little anna can only eat very littlle .. the girl can make her self gag on will ive seen it. thats another blog ....i even wonder had she been molested by grand pa ? i would have gave any thing if i would have just sticking to my feelings about moving in with her shes really been a witch thats only half of it , so now week of christmas. well iam planning to be sick for this comming christams........

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3 Comments | Public | 797 views | Permalink | Flag Inappropriate let the war begain well we moved in i was very aprincive about it i really dreaded it. the nexk day after father in law passed away. mother in law sets down sheds s few tears and says its true. i asked her whats true ? she said that her husband did molest donalds sister . iam thinking lord why did she lie right to my face why was she protecting him why? of cosrsed this p issed me off . then she went into how she prayed all those years god would take his sexual desire way. did she think that would make things better ? she said she got her daughter help took her to the doctor. then she says chrie was still a virgin, oh my god iam thinking shes trying to make it sound that oral sex its not too bad . lord sexual abuse is abuse no matter whats its bad . well mother in law i have hurd her tell her daughter JUST GET OVER WHAT YOUR FATHER DID TO YOU ITS THE PASSED!    NO COMPASHIN WHATS SO EVER . Edit   Delete

0 Comments | Public | 714 views | Permalink | Flag Inappropriate what started the war donald came and got me in oct 19 2005, his mother said told him if you go get that woman they cant live with me. see donald had been married 2 times befor and his frist marrage lasted almost 5 years ,the first mrs really hurt him bad . the second one lasted a month he saw what she was changing into she was controling wife like the first wife in my opion. donald brought me back to my home town the nexk day after ariving home we stayed with his mother for about a week. the first thing she says to me let me adopt torrie , where did that come from? i was wondering . well i told her no one would raise my daughter but me no offence. well mother in law wantedto raise my daughter and home school her . iam very againsted. mother in law was raising her grand daughter . this made me wonder why couldnt her daughter raise her daughter? mmmmwell the nexk day donald and i got married the day befor he asked me to marry him . i had been in love with him sents i was in high school i was so backwards i never told him so i promised god i would tell him if i ever saw him again, i found him threw classmates. he had told me that his father was dying of small cell cancer, his mother was going threw h ell . so my heart went out to her . his mother was doing things i didnt understand like showing me what a beautiful wedding he had with his first wife , i didnt know what to make of it . i really got the feeling she didnt trust me i didnt know why , i also felted she resinted me for marriying her son , i didnt know why. then about a week into my marrage we moved into our little traier. his sister came over i was cooking and she started in how her mom stole her daughter from her and how mother in law tricked her into giving her her daughter. well i didnt know what to make of that so i just hurd what all she had to say , then she got into how her father molested her . and of corse any one with a heart would get upset hearing that. so she lefted . something just didnt make any sents to me ok if her dad molested why would she have her daughter living with grand pa and grand ma? was she lieing about it? i dont really to this day know .but i didnt understand. why would any mother let her child live with a molseter? well i went to the mother in law and told her what her daughter was saying to us and was it true. she said no it wasnt then she started trashing her daughter telling all the bad things she had done how when she was a teen she was sleeping with alot of men being a real big tramp. i asked father in law was it true what donald sister was saying? father in law looked at me and asked me did i belive her ? i told him i wasnt sure but i felted like there was truth in what she was saying but i wasnt sure what to belive. so i let things drop. strange things started happing in our home mine and dolalds home we started finding little pieces of cloth (prayer cloths) it could have only came from his sister chrie , we were finding them every where in my pillows on the desk in the couch. so i let it go again . but where we were finding the little prayed over cloths where where some one had to be letting her in our home with out us being home . i dont like sneekie people doing things like that becalse doing something behind your back is wrong .if you cant hand me a prayer cloth why hide it in my couch and other places, i was finding prayer cloths in my purce. i told donald about that , i didnt really want to make a big deal out of it but it concerned me , well i found out that my land lords and chrie were best pennicostal friends . little things like that was happening i told mother in law she just laughted well i have prayer cloths all over my house too. this concerned me donald didnt seemd to concern eather. but i didnt like the fact that his sister came into my house with out my concent and did things like that . well then chrie started crap becalse we went to mom in law about what she did we told on her. well she had to one up us , she told mother in law that we was home and wouldnt open the door to her , she could see my daughter peeking threw the blinds and she wouldnt let her in . then she chrie told mom in law there was blood all over the porch , chrie saw me the day befor putting red cool aid in the humming bird feeder she saw the red cool aid dripiing on the  porch railing i told her it was red cool aid , well she got mother in law scared ,so finly she calls donalds cell phone , she asks whats going on . well donald and i were laying down in our bedroom becalse he had just slipped his disk in his back , well thoughtful sis was trying to sturr up some crap. then we would go on family outing and it just be my husband and my daugher , we would make special trips to the mall and fun center with anna becalse she was in the family too we didnt ever leave anna out beclase shes a sweet little girl , her mother wouldnt raise her ,her real father wanted to give her away. so the child was just dealthed a heard life and i must say mother in law did step in and take her grand daughter becalse her mother couldnt raise her she didnt really have time to raise a child . i do see that his sister is mentally unfit for being a mother .and shes been in a mental hospital ... in between all this donalds father passed awway. this june2007. it was aug the 7 we moved in with his mother , i told donald i didnt want to move in with her i didnt think it would work little things would happen bewteen his mother and me she once handed me my head telling me i wasnt going to threw up in her face that we went to the mall with my daughter and didnt take anna with us,donald went to his mother and let her have it becalse he hurd me on the phone  i was in our car i called her to let her know we were on our way home and dont worry we would drive slow it was really snowing bad that night we thought we woulndt worry her by telling her we were on our way home ,she gave me a blessing out telling me shame on us for not including little anna how bad were . well mother in law said iam SORRY so i forgave her but i told donald it wouldnt work moving in with her. she flipped flopped back and forth yes she wanted us in no she did and over and over. so then donald told me things would work out with his mother she was this wonderful woman so giving so kind.