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last night I woke up screaming ,my husband woke me up I was dreaming that a man was shooting dogs
 there was people all around and no one would help, so i steped up and told the man he wasnt shooting any more dogs , the last dog he shot had its little ears layed back and it was begging wagging its tail.
 i grabbed the little dog , and i tryed to sheld the dog , the man knocked me down the dog , the dog got away and the man puled a gun and put it to my throat , some how i had a gun and i pulled mine too and pulled the trigger ,he did the same , my husband woke me up i was gasping for air . i then went back to sleep i was at a store buying pictures with frames and these 7-9 year old kids getting gas for a very old truck and they started picking on my daughter ,i dropped my things i bought and grabbed my daughter to protect her and told her to get in the car . then i woke up again . i then didnt go back to bed ive been up sents 4am 
when i was in my teens my father shot my dog for trying to bite me for me scolding him , it  tromatised  me , then years later my father in law was going to shoot a dog in front of some kids i grabbed the dog and told him he would have to shoot me first and if he did try shooting the dog i was calling the police and how could he do that
 it would hurt the little kids watching him . i didnt let him do it then i went in and told his wife , he yelled at him
for doing that  . i try to stand up for whats right .

The mask by KARLA REEVES

 

The mask is symbolic of the mask we ware in life . we put put on one mask when we go to church action so good never mind the way you acted and spoke at the bar last night . we all ware so many mask in life sometimes our mask are just a way to cope with things we don’t want to deal with in life the mask are like so many hats we ware in life mother /daughter /wife/ . there are so many facets  of who we are and what makes us unique just like the millions of cells each cell we possess makes us all different even idical twins are different even though they both ware the same face mask in life there thought process makes them different  . what is the mask we ware that makes us human? What is the human factor ? is it the way we think becalse of what was passed on threw our cells and genes . what makes us belive what we belive  what do we possess to pass down to our next gennarations the same abuse . to belive well its all preprogrammed in our genes to keep repreating the same abusive ways mother marrys a abuser then her daughter will inhearret the doomed gene to repeat this life . if you belive this you haven given up

On posssing the eknowallage to live healther and better , knowing nothing will ever be 100% perfect

But we can do better with our belifes styms of life . I belive we possess the ablitys to live so much better

We just eccept the mask of doom of marrying into abuse , take off the mask of life rip off the skins of false hoods the fairytails you will always be rescued by a rich man on a while horse and you will love happily ever after . real life has real problems to be solved when we take off the masks we were in enabling our selfs not to touch or see what the real problems we really face in life so we ware the masks of denial thinking we are protecting our selfs , but in fact you lie to your true self not eknowllaging whats

Really right there such as saying and beliving that sexual abuse cant happen in your perfect family . warring the mask of ive got the perfect children husband and life and money to burn. Living in denial

You lie to your self protecting no one .you are a mask I being stronge when you don’t let your self

Cry for your own iner pain . its ok to feel its ok to ware your mask of the real you eccept who you are

No one elce will till you serch for who you really are don’t run with the mask of drugs on you hurt your children when you ware the pitty mask of well I was abused so I ware the check out mask I check out of life and rasing my children .sometimes you have to take off all those mask and see who you really are a hurt child/adult and try to deal with it . when you find the real mask of who you are it will be a mask of pain but you will heal when you reach for the mask of truth and healing it wont be easy it’s a hard mask to keep on but a dayly fight to ware the mask of who you really are will pay off and people will see your true you and see your beeming light you possess . in time the masks of healing and pain will get better . but its too easy to be self fish and copping with drugs copping out on your children and family doesn’t desirve the demond mask you

ware when your drugging out . what mask in life do you ware ? life is hard enough with out warring the fake mask be true to your self . some times warring different masks aren’t a bad thing . but don’t forget ware the one your human factor fits after all we are all human. The symbolic mask sometimes hides who we really are .
 

do we really need this man coaching our youth? this is pretty sick !! why didnt anyone report this to the police? what we are saying sports is more inportant then reporting a child molester ! the ones rioting for this man and supporting him says alot about us as people . where is our values ? where is our intergty as people as christans? maybe pretentinding it didnt happen will make it go away . people just dont care about the abused children! when people stay quiet becalse he spends millions on a collage says so much more about us ,what would God think of those that knew about the abuse and did nothing . may God have mercy on our souls we have failed our children when we do nothing to help them, we tell our children when we protect the molester its ok when some one preys on a child . if he did this may god have mercy on his soul and on the ones that knew about it and did nothing.thats why molesters keep molesting they know no adult will stand up to them or even speak out for the children. shame on us all for letting this keep happning to our kids! it saddens me that so many support this man! i dont ! he should be in jail!! this is a travisty . you wonder why so many of our youth are on drugs . might ask questions the ones no one wants the answers too. i know back in the day people didnt talk about tabu subected such as childhood abuse but its time to talk about it bring it to the light . as christan i will speak for the children becalse i was one no one helped ,when i told i was blamed shame on people theres no excues for not protecting our childen. but most think there go i by the grace of God , I just hope those in denail when they face God they will be held accountable . change the laws people protect our children not the abusers!

 

Paterno, president Spanier out at Penn State

espn.go.com

Penn State trustees fired football coach Joe Paterno and university president Graham Spanier amid the growing furor over how the school handled sex abuse allegations against an assistant coach.

 

Oh my lord this morning started out badly for me . at 7:30am

I thought I would try something new for breakfast the apple toaster strudel

So my daughter torrie says mom put them in the microwave for 30 seconds

So they wont have cold spots . so half asleep I do so then put them in the toaster

 Gees getting them out of the toaster wasn’t easy at all . I burned my finger tips

It gets better , so I put them on a plate to let them I thought cool enough

To eat WRONG! WRONG! WRONG! So I bite into one the moten lava

Toaster strudel dripped scorching my lips ‘’ SHAZAMM”! was the best I could

Say . I asked her how does she eat the moten lava? They need to put warning

Lables on them . she giggled at me tellme mom

 they do have warning lables on the box .

in small red lables: caution pastry will be hot.

They need need to put in big big letters CAUTION HOT AS HELL 4,000000

DEGREES HOT LAVA!!! Well needless to say scalled my lips

It work my as# up . my daughter was laughting at me she said i

Sounded like a comedian . carring on about eating the hot lava toaster

Strudel . I told her nothing wakes you up in the morning like scalding your

Lips with hot strudel !! I couldn’t ammagin feeding toaster strudel to small

Kids! All kidding aside my lips hasn’t got

second dregree burns I was being  of a drama queen this morning

thank you god it didn’t drip on my bumpers it would have metled my gown

those things are hot ! the moral of this story is don’t let a blonde eat

toaster strudel ! be a good firend and take the box away from her !!

good friends don’t let blondes eat toaster strudles!

They are dangerously hot to eat !! I hope this was

 intertaning and a little funny

So now I am eating a pop cycle to cool

my toung and lips.ever have any funny morning! Well I did.

my new fire place it will be hooked up tommow

when you give you feeling to anothnd drop the lennions its affair
 when you distance your self from you wife or husband
when you have to lie about where you are or where you've been
its affair . its cut and dry . cut bait or fish think about that one. if you didnt get it think harder .
i love saying to make you think.

what do you think of my new hair due?

do you like it?





 











 

 

I feel so very blessed today 18 years ago I became a mother . I am so blessed to have Victoria''Torrie''

 




shes a beautiful young lady Happy Birthday Victoria moma loves you!

yesterday my nebour wanted me to take pictures of her son
 hes such a special little boy . hes learnin
how do syng i belive hes deaf and he has lots of health problems you just cant help but love him as
i do .







he cant speak but this last picture he was telling us hes done with pictures
 he cant tell her if hes not feeling well and his mother and her friends were just
trying to get him to look this way and that way he was just over stimulated
and i told his mother we will get more pictures when its only her and i and little
conner it was too much for him .
  hes such a little gift


 

hes my hero Donald hes the greatest man for getting me out of
a diomistic violance relationship back in 2005 , he came from ky. to fla.
to get me and my daughter no string   a ttached . he was willing to spend his own money
to move us back to our home state of ky. he didnt ask anything of me in return
but i told him there was a deep secret i needed to tell him i had loved him
sents high school and never forgotten my love for him . we get to my home state
of ky and he said he wanted to ask me something he wanted to marry me and i said yes
next month oct 21,2011 will be our 6 years wedding annivercy. and back in april of 2009
he became a father he adopted my daughter , her birth father walked away from her . hes my hero Donld!
any one can be a father but it takes a real man to be a dad heres some of the pictures that are my fav.
hes let my daughter color his hair almost pink iam looking for that picture hes let her put hair ribbins
in his hair . hes just the greatest dad in the world . he has the bigest heart in the world .
I want to say I love you MY HERO DONALD!! the kind of love Donald has for my
daughter Torrie (VICTORIA) you just cant fake . his love comes stright from his big heart
 I can see Donlad and I growing old together . he is a wonderful man. my hero
 I found more pictures the ones where my daughter colored her dads hair





she was putting little hair brats in his hair and loving it , then she colored his hair and spiked it .










our daughter will be 18 next month and i know one day her daddy will walk her down the isle
to be someones wife one day and he and i will take plaenty of pictures .
 I am so blessed to have the love of my life in my life and loving my daughter hes my hero

I love you Donald!!!

have a great weekend! these butterfly are so hard to take pictures of
 i chased them all over my yard! out of 100 pictures i got a few that wasnt blurred
 thank god for speed shoot , mine takes 20 picutres a second , well maybe not that fast but
my husband calls it the michine gun setting , but it helps me get some really cool pictures
 i took this one picture this week its called a saddleback cadapillor it will sting you
iam entering it this week in the county fair i'll let you know how i do.


 

ive
posted the bee picture befor but i am putting it also in the fair this comming week
end

 


what do you think of my pictures ?

we found out this week that donals approved for his back secergy
so pray he will get it soon and most of all it works and takes his back pain away .
thanks

I just had to share my pictures i took today
 
 

looking into the looking glass of my toxic childhood, seeing the broken sharded of glass in my sisters hearts
seeing thier brokeness of our toxic childhood . never knowing if we 3 sisters will ever have a mended and healed
relationship . i keep looking in the distorted mirroro of our lifes the pain and brokeness .
god were we 3 sisters domed from birth? doomed from broken and abused parents to pass on thier legicy of pain to us sisters . why must we bare the sins of our parents ? god my sisters need such healing
they dont see the pain they both inflect on me and others they both are abliviouse of there pain they inflect .
i know they both are broken like me inside but iam healing and raising my daughter in love so she wont carry my sins of pain and tocix love . heavenly father so many familys are like mine in such pain they cant climb out of it the hurt and pain is so dark in their wolrd .ive been writting my book the sins of the sisters and ive cryed while writting it becalse the pain hits too much to home the pain i write about .the pain of being abused se xually and the pain of the shame to carry all the sins that arnt mine to carry . both my parents are gone . i know all hope is lost my sisters us all having a relationship its broken the hope today . the best i cant do is move on . and eccept my sisters are they are broken . but i will always pray for them . and i will love them ....

Grow old with me my love : Karla Reeves

Grow old with me my love . take my hand place your ring of your heart on my left hand ring finger .

Today my love we become one heart  . walk with me in our lifes journey walk hand in hand .

Looking into my eyes today and see the love that flickers like a bright fire .

Share with me today and tomorrow my dreams and your dreams together we will reach into the stars in the sky .

 Share the baby we will rasie and love .

As the years pass us by as we walk hand in hand for all to see the smiles of love between us.

 Heart in heart together with you and you with me .

We look at the time how fasted its passed  and how we still have the look in our eyes

That we had the day we became one . love that reflectes in our softed spoken words

 Not having to say a word knowing we love each other with just a smile and a look.

My love my treasure my friend my love of my life .my love goes deeper than skin deep it goes to the

Soul . the kind of love we have many cant find or let it slip away like time . there was something so special the day I looked into your eyes and looked down  . a flame so deep we was too young to

Understand what it was you was and are my best friend . time seprated us as my choises but time

Brought us back to eachothers life ‘s path . seeing you again after so many years time stood still looing into your eyes seeing what I saw as a young teen . seeing whats in your eyes has been there always .

A lot older and wiser the day we said I do , I vued to love you forever and grow old with you

Look where we are my love older and wiser and still in love with my best friend . you have seen me at my best and my worst in my teen years and now my older years . your love flame burns brighter and stronger as we hold on to each others hearts and hands to grow old with now and forever . some people never get the gift we have been given the shades of grace to find the love that we have now and forever more .Donlad Donlad Donald my love I love you and I will grow old with you my love . I love you just seems like the simplest way to put it . I love you my Donald